food for thought

So this whole end of days thing has me thinking. I don't think it's going to happen tomorrow. Not at all. But I do have to say that it is entertaining. All day at work we were kidding each other about eating all day and spending all our money because sunday it wouldn't matter. And tellin each other it was nice knowing ya. I feel kinda bad for these people who really believe it though. This guy has spent thousands of dollars on billboards and signs...but what if he was right???

If I only had one day left to live what would i do? If it was just my last day I would for sure donate everything I could to those who needed it. We may be in a tight situation but there's plenty of other people who are worse off than us. And obviously spend it with Colt and Ronald. It would be nice to be able to spend it with ALL of both of our families but were all so spread out I don't think that's a possibility. But say goodbye to everyone and let everyone know how much I loved them. And if possible write letters so everyone would have something to keep from me.

If it was everyone's last day...I think I would just stay home with Colt and Ronald. Enjoy the sunshine with my reasons for breathing. I couldn't imagine a better way to spend my last moment than with them.  How would you spend your last day?

Wow it's been a while lol. But that's ok. We've been busy. Ronald turned two last month. He's definitely in his terrible two's. Without a doubt. And apparently they last till he's five...great. But i'm so grateful for him. He brightens my day so much. Even when he's throwing a fit i'm so grateful he's here. He's changed our whole perspective on things.

Colt's taking a job out of state next month. He'll be gone two weeks and home two weeks. I'm really looking forward to him being home for two whole weeks. He can spend so much more time with Ronald and Colton. Which will be good for all of them. I will continue working as much as i'd like to be able to stay home and go to school full time. But my insurance is too good. And that's hard to give up. And I have a big plan of getting a gian savings and college funds put away for the kids...it's all nice in theory lol. I just hope it can work. So far it hasn't worked out so well but Colt's also been making less than he was before.

Things are hard but in my line of work it makes me realize how much we really have. And that i should be more grateful. I feel like I whine a lot about how things are for us but I need to keep my chin up. I've learned so much and feel like this experience has benefited us in so many ways. We've never been closer than we are now. And we appreciate everything more. And I mean everything.

Colt is now in the young men presidency. He loves it and it's going to be good for him to spend some time with the young men and the scouts. He never went to scout camp and hopefully will be able to get to this year. It will definitely be an experience. If it's anything like girls camp he'll learn tons from them. I'm in the nursery. Since january we've had three kids tops. Our two boys and our neighbors little girl. But I don't mind it. It's nice. Ronald could use a little experience with other kids. He's used to not having to share his toys except when Colton is here. And lately that hasn't been going over so well. They usually play so well together but the last couple months has been difficult with them together. I'm hoping it's just the age and they'll grow out of it...

ugh

Colt lost his job last monday. It was definitely bad news. Were good for this month but next is what im worried about. I started my new job today and I think im gonna love it. Colt can start a new job once he gets his class a cdl. Its just a matter of how fast he can get that done and then we'll be ok. Its making it in the meantime thats hard. Having Colton more has been nice. Except that he and Ronald get on each others nerves because neither one of them is used to having to share as much as they do now. But i'm sure it will get better the more they're around each other. At least we hope so. Since they're driving each other nuts it drives us nuts. We need a break. We've been so stressed out and the end just seems so far away. But its coming. We have lots to be grateful for and will definitely remember those things tonight in my prayers. A house with heat, two running vehicles, two adorable children, and each other. Everything else will fall in to place. I think I just need to sing in my head count your many blessings name them one by one...but sometimes it only does so much. We'll be fine. Looking forward to another day tomorrow. We get to eat dinner together and go to bed together. Thats all that matters